6 months

[xp_daredevil]

I met with my therapist today and got my 6th months sober token. I've gotten one every month since I stopped using again. It's been harder recently, the past two weeks or so, but I'm determined to stay clean. I thought the holidays would be hardest, but they weren't so bad. Good and bad days are normal, I've got to remember that. And one bad day, or even a series of bad days, doesn't mean it won't get better.

I don't know if the picture came out, but I tried to take it with my phone. Hopefully you all can see it.

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[x-daredevil.livejournal.com]

You're right, I didn't choose those things, but they affected me regardless and I have two choices - I can live with them as best I can, or I can whine about life being unfair. And yeah, life is unfair, but it's never going to get better if I sit around bemoaning that. And my dad didn't ASK to be poor or die before I was grown or anything like that. But they happened. And you deal the best you can.

I disagree about not getting to make choices. I can choose if I want to use again - I know where to get drugs and all that. I choose NOT to use. I choose to apply for college, but I don't have to. I choose to study, but studying doesn't guarantee I'll do well in school. It doesn't matter how old I am, I am still in charge of my destiny and blaming others for things out of my control is useless.

Maybe I'll get a good job after college, maybe not. But I definitely won't if I sit here whining about it instead of getting out there and trying. Being blind is less of a handicap than refusing to take a risk. I'm not afraid of trying and failing, but I am afraid of not trying.